August 12, 2010: “Dismantled” (for Jacques Demy and Agnes Varda)

Published in the A Year in Return: March 15, 2010-March 15, 2011, Journal

My head is full of stars
and my heart is full of winter.
I feel pain everywhere.

It happened only this afternoon and
it is already over. I jumped
but there was nothing there.

I began to paint when I lost my sight.
I squeezed paint directly from the tube
and painted with my fingers, anything

to keep away from thought, trying to
remember being on a highway
and knowing where I was going.